Crazy 6th Graders!

Okay, I kinda may or may not have just said something to Maya and Caprice. It's terrorizing. I still can't believe I said that! Okay, okay. Here it goes... I admitted my disturbing grade 6 story. Okay, here it is.

It was a day in like November of Grade 6, so a year ago. Farkle and I had to work on a English project. So, I had to go to his house. He still lives in that same house. So, we had to work on our project one weekend night. It was like 7pm. So, we were together there. "How do I spell this word?" I asked about a big grade 8 word. Farkle told me and I thanked him. So, then Farkle's mom came in. "Kids, you've been working since you got home from school." She said. "Actually since Riley got here." Farkle said. "Oh yeah. But, why don't you guys watch a movie?" She asked. "Okay!" Farkle said and grabbed my arm and pulled me up. I smiled. We sat down on his couch and began watching a movie. It was a scary movie. It was REALLLYYYY scary. When it got to a very scary part, I was almost crying. Farkle looked at me. "Are you okay?" He asked. I shook my head, frightened and crying. He grabbed onto me, slowly because he was probably afraid I'd make him leave. Then, he fully hugged me. I leaned into him. We eventually fell asleep like that, but in our sleep we let go. Then, Farkle's mom or dad probably picked me up and layed me in Farkle's bed, and let Farkle stay on the couch. We woke up in the morning, and had a bunch of awkward staring at eachother moments. I thought to myself, "Oh dear Lord, I have a crush on Farkle!!!" And then the next week, it went away.

I think this was us that same year. That must've been like March or April 2014, but we were still eleven I think.

That was DEFINENTLY us in Novemeber 2013. The first one is us in Novemeber 2013, the second one must've been like April 2014, the 3rd one looks like we are 10, and the fourth one, well it's me.

So, the point is, that was my temporary 3 day crush on Farkle in Grade 6!

Jealousy Plan Failed

Okay, so last night after being horrified by Micheal Myers, the murderer with Maya and my friend Caprice and after she left, Maya and I slept over with the boys. So, Lucas was apparently trying to make Maya jealous with the girl in 7th grade that everyone loves. Her name is Alexis, and I wont say last name because of Riley Jake, stalking Maya. So, he called Alexis and tried to make her jealous. Although, she ended up talking to Maya because apparently they're good friends. So, Farkle told her to go along with the plan and start liking Lucas. She faked it, but it failed. So, Lucas gave in to Maya that he doesn't have a true crush on her, although she is still awesome and pretty! I wasn't listening, oh but I knew what was goin' on! I have ears people! Farkle can't shut out my ears! I don't know why he was trying to make Maya jealous of Alexis, but he was. He tried to make Alexis the opposite of Maya to prove he likes girl that aren't like her. They are pretty opposite, and he did get that from real information, like she sucks at drawing and she is sporty. She takes hockey as an option, I'm sure it's real. So, Lucas' jealousy plan towards Maya officially failed!

Getting Used To...

One thing I know I have to get used to is this. Farkle likes Maya. She is his women. So am I, but she is too. I have to get past thinking I am special. I have to know that he loves her too. Usually, that makes me cry. It made me cry last night. It made me cry that Farkle loved Maya like no other. He loves me, but he loves her too and it bothers me more than anything. Everyday I tried to tell myself, "Were equal to him. Don't be hurt." It never really worked. I would cry because I'm not the only one. With Maya and Lucas (they hang out because Farkle and I do), that Lucas doesn't have a similar connection with anyone else. We've gotten over our crush, but it'd be weird if Farkle did. Just, getting used to it has been a pain all my life. I even sent something to EWC (ElderWisdomCircle) about it and trying to get used to it. He loves us both, and it'll always be that way. Always. I should eventually learn to get used to the painful truth. Did I say painful? And truth. Girl Meets the Truth. I'm that girl, and I am just continuing my life to meet more truths like this. I'll get used to Farkle loving Maya. I have to and I'll try

I Guess I've Finally Realized

So, this post is going to be painful to write, because I never wanted to have to write this, but I am. Last night, I guess I finally realized something. I realized that there is a lot more to Farkle than I thought. I don't know why it was last night, but I did. He was mean last night to Maya, but before that, after he apologized too I realized. I really want to know what the future has in store for the two of us. I want to know. I love him so much. Besides, I am becoming creepily obsessive. Instead of doing my math homework, I doodled Riley+Farkle drawings with hearts instead. I really think, I hate saying this, but maybe wikia was right about the whole me having a possible crush on Farkle. Besides, I said I liked him in Flaws. So, I really do love him, and I guess I've realized that.

The Slide and the Pool

Last night, Maya, Lucas, Farkle and I took us and the 4 younger kids we met to the pool. There's Auggie, Ava, and their new friends Ben and Angela. They're 7, though. So, we took them. I wore a purple bikini, and Farkle was flattered by that. He loved it. We grabbed on to each other when everyone was still together. Then, Maya, Lucas, Ben, and Angela went one way, and Auggie, Ava, Farkle and I went the other. You can view Maya's blog, The 99 Problems of Maya Hart to read her post about what she did. But Farkle and I took Auggie and Ava on the slide. "I call going with Riley." Auggie said. "What? No." Farkle said. "I'll go with you next." I said putting my hand on Farkle's shoulder. "Okay..." Farkle said sadly. I put my other hand on his other shoulder and shook him. "Come on, you're fine. You can go with Ava..." I said and then drifted off. I realized... Farkle and Ava! It's funny. You can view Angela's blog to read about the whole Farkle and Ava thing. It's angela-carter.blogspot.ca. So, we went in those groups. Farkle and Ava went first. Once I got down, Farkle grabbed on to me. "Let's go." He said. Then, he looked at me in the bikin again. He drifted off. "Farkle?" I said shaking him. "Oh! The slide. Right!" He said. Auggie and Ava went down first. Farkle told me he was scared to go with me, because I was older than Ava and she was slower because she was smaller. "Farkle, listen" I said grabbing onto his shoulders. He grabbed onto my waist, and I thought 'Flaws.' I didn't stop him though. "Farkle, you can trust me. You know you can. Okay, you can hold on to me." I said. "I will, and I am now." Farkle said and continued to grab onto my waist, like Flaws. I smiled at him. Our dialouge continued for a while until Auggie and Ava came up again. "We were waiting" Auggie said. "Sorry." I said. Ava looked at how Farkle and I were holding each other. I saw her look and we let go fast. "We'll go." I said. "We'll go?" I said looking at Farkle for an answer. "Yeah, we'll go..." He said. We sat down and went down together. He screamed once. I grabbed onto him. "You're fine! I said. He was in the front first and I got scared for him because the water would fly into his face. "Switch!!" I yelled. "WHAT!" He said. I quickly swapped our spots just in time for the water to hit my face. "You did that for me?" He asked. I laughed. "Yup!" I responded. We hugged until Auggie and Ava came down. We were always going down the slide. As kids, Auggie and Ava wanted to do the same thing over and over again, but me and Farkle wanted to go in the hot-tub, and they weren't wanting to. I told Auggie and Ava to stay on the slide while Farkle and I go in the hot tub for 5 minutes. So, the kids agreed and then Farkle and I took off. We sat in the hot tub and talked for a little bit. Then, we decided we should get back to Auggie and Ava, who apparently took off with Ben. I saw them. I said that was okay. So, Farkle and I constantly went down the slide over and over. Than, we all went to DQ! That's how the night ended!

I'm Tired of Living Like This

I'm tired of living my everyday life with my friends. In the episodes, I am never with them this much. The main reason I decided this, because I've got some stuff in mind that I'd rather spend my life doing, and I just said that because I became so desperate to do that instead. It's not them, it's me. Of course like always, there's Maya for ya'. She's all... Maya about it. Then, she takes Farkle and leaves because I say I don't want them back at my house if they're planning to stay overnight. Than, I realized how unfair it is. Maya said it wasn't fair that I didn't want them sleepingover as often, and I was thinking, "I am stuck living the life you want me to, and you think it's unfair for you? You're lucky I'm actually talking to you right now." So, yeah, I am sick and tired of living like this. I'm not done "liking" Farkle like "that", like Flaws, but I'm done living my Matthew West stuff. Of course the song is OBVIOUSLY mine and ALWAYS will be, but I'm done going through it. I got a text from Brooklyn saying, "srry for harassing you, ur free to go i guess" and I was seriously SHOCKED that she said sorry. Then, I just walked the way home with Ava and Auggie because Lucas headed home when we reached his house. I just talked to Ava and Auggie about school, their dating life, and more stuff. PS, Ava freaked out my brother with ghosts and I laughed at it! Anyway, off topic...

This whole Matthew West thing brings me back to a few weeks ago. It was all 4 of us (me, Lucas, Farkle, Maya) and I told Farkle this, "the Matthew West stuff never lasts for more than 2 weeks, except for the first time" and I was right. It never lasts, and I need to have something else in my life. To me, it makes perfect sense that when that stuff went away, I would no longer be satisfied in life. Flaws wont air for another 2-3 weeks so, nothin' for me! We have to have Girl Meets the Forgotten air first. So, for now, I'm nothing worth it to be here with them. Not as in I am not worth it, but the fact that I have nothing worth it. Because just like I said to Farkle, the plan for me since August was to have not everything of mine based on dating. So, having Farkle like this isn't enough. The episodes aren't enough. Just like the suite life idiots (yeah I said that), for Addison or Maddie or whatever it was, episodes weren't worth it, so they changed. My issue is, unlike them, my episodes life actually means something, so I don't want to change me. The closest change to Riley Matthews is Matthew West and that's over. I don't care if anyone else has the abuse stuff in their life but only if generally, I control it. Maya having it, Farkle or Lucas having it, I wouldn't approve of. For example, Smackle, if she had abuse in her life (not that she EVER would), then that's okay because I know she's not like mine at all. Even if she is, I am more controlling of that than Maya or Lucas or Farkle is. So, the point is, I am done living like this. Until I have something good for me, don't talk to me. Once I do, talk to me. If that never ends up happening until Flaws, and that's what you'd rather, have fun on your own until November 7. P.S. that means Halloween alone too. So, check back here soon for more.

The Possible Death of... ME

So, I was bitten by Kiwi so he can show me who's boss. He also bit my mother, to show her who's boss. So, he bit me this morning. My mom said that I should get a tetanus shot. I knew what tetanus was, just not that well. I went on the internet and searched it up. It is uncureable. There is no cure for tetanus. It is a disease that is EASILY caused by someone like Kiwi. I'm very afraid that I am gonna die because it kills over 50,000 people each year in America. Fifty thousand people. I'm very afraid. Who knows, maybe the world will never see Riley Matthews again. Is this the end for me? I don't want it to end for me. Tetanus isn't cureable. Goodbye Riley, goodbye Riley, goodbye Riley.... I'm gonna die!!

Why Do They Follow Me? APPARENTLY THERE'S A PART 2

Part 2 to my post, Why Do They Follow Me? Apparently, there is a part 2! Anyways! URGENT NEWS. Apparently, more goes on in Flaws than I thought!!! I hate it and I NEVER wanna see it!!! Okay, so there is NEW moments between me and Farkle that I had NO IDEA about!!! I NEVER WANNA SEE FLAWS NOW! Anyway, here is the Farkle and Riley moments from BLAGHHH! Oh, I mean Flaws.... maybe...

• Riley is concerned for where Farkle is.
• Riley is upset when he tells them he's being bullied.
• She takes him by the collar, claiming that "it isn't him."
• He explains the situation to her.
• Riley is the only person that Farkle tells the situation to.
• When he says that he's the "biggest nothing," she stares at him.
• She hugs him comfortingly.
• He hugs back.
• He was holding her, his hands wrapped around her waist.
• He kept looking at her.
• She made people write on their foreheads to support him.

Okay, so look at the 9th one! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! PARALYZED RILEY! I'm never gonna live to see the next day of my life!!!! There will never be more life lived by Riley Matthews after FLAWS airs!!!! Why Do They Follow Me? part 2 created.

Riley Wins the Flaw Game

Girl Meets Flaws (Flaws) has aired on Disney. Everyone has moments on their moments page, but Farkle and I. I am happy. I do feel that it is rediculous that they didn't have my moments with him. I know we hugged, I know I grabbed on to his shirt (nicely, not like Maya did), I know I grabbed on to him, I know I was the one who went to talk to him first, I know I was the one who missed him in class. So, it's kinda rediculous. Anyway, I think I just won the flaws game because Maya and Lucas have got some sick (good kind of sick) moments! So, Riley won the flaw game!

This is a scene from Flaws that they call Riley Wins. Clearly, I won something so I consider this photo to be my victory of this post! Except, look how Farkle is looking at me..... anyways. So, Riley officially wins the flaws game!

I Wasn't Ready to Grow Up

Growing up can be at any age. 1 year olds grow up, 12 year olds grow up, 30 year olds grow up, 80 year olds grow up. Sometimes, your growth can be rushed. A 1 year old shouldn't be grown into a 12 year old, a 12 year old shouldn't grow into a 30 year old, and you get the point. Growing up too fast. What do you think that means? I'll tell you what I think it means.

To me, a 12 year old growing up to fast looks like this.

I walked out of my best friend's house to go home. Afraid of the night. I got caught up with older people. They told me what to do, and what I have to do to not die. Afraid, I would listen. Every day, or every moment the older people wanted me, I'd have to go, I was afraid. I never thought anything would happen. Soon, it just got worse and worse and worse until it reached something else.

          Sexual Abuse

It was a morning, a day. I walked outside, I wanted to play, like every 12 year old little girl. Then, I met up with the same older people. Then, they took me somewhere that I felt unsafe. To a house. Their house. They made me think I was okay, and then hurt me. They made me feel uncomfortable, upset, afraid, freaked out, weird, hurt, pressured, and focred and suddenly, a little girl was gone, and she grew up.

I would begin to tell other people, quoting, 'you should really find someone like them.' I would begin to do things, I never had done before. Oddly, I noticed a slight change in my appearance for a few days. I was scared someone would notice. My dad asked one morning, "Riley, are you alright? You look sick." I also did a health project, and it was on sexual abuse. I knew to much about the topic that I got bored with the class. I did a project and presented it, I knew too much. Everyone looked at me weird. I also had bad stomache and abdominal pains. I would complain about it, and I would every day. My mom suddenly became VERY concerned for me. "Riley, something is wrong. Are you okay?" She asked. I told her I'm fine. Not often, but the nights that I would be with them for the night, I lacked sleep during the day. I fell asleep on my couch once. I would have memory loss. I also attempted to be unattractive, so it was less tempting for them to do anything to me. Was that a little girl? Was that a 12 year old girl? Was it? That was major changing in a girl. That's because I wasn't ready to grow up too fast.

Kiwi's Meet & Greet

Kiwi Matthews has now settled into his home. Next post will be about his personality! He's got one! So, I've decided that Maya, Lucas, Farkle and I will have a Kiwi Meet & Greet! The boys haven't met him yet, and I'm sure they'd love to! Kiwi has so much potential and deserves a meeting with more people!

Kiwi will be happy to have a meet and greet with Farkle and Lucas. They'll love him. He'll also have a meet and greet with Ginger, Maya's ferret! So, A MEET AND GREET WITH KIWI IS COMIN' UP SOON!!!

Introducing.....

The day, the minute, the time has finally come!!! My hamster is home! He is an orange and white little guy and I LOVE HIM! His name has been chosen. My hamster is Kiwi! Kiwi Matthews, my hamster. He's finally home and he's.... ADORABLE! So, thanks for being here to welcome Kiwi to the family.

Alright, Kiwi is being very fussy to get out of his carry on cage so I should get him goin! Have a good rest of the day!

Offical Done Hamster Research -Completed-

Hi, it's Riley at 7:58pm!! It is time! It's officially time for the Official Done Hamster Research -Completed-. So, I've done research for a long time now. Now, I'm ready to share it with you! It's all from my mind, I have no research windows open. This is from my brain! Here it all is...
                           

                             When Your Hamster Comes Home
When your hamster comes home, you need to be ready for him/her. They need to have a ready cage and supplies. They have to have everything you need to begin caring for your hamster!

As soon as your hamster comes home, he/she isn't used to human touch, most likely. Considering where your hamster came from, you shouldn't touch him for some days so he/she can get used to his/her new home. If he or she comes from a family who touched and played with him, feel free to hold him or her right away. Just first give them time to get used to you and the new cage and new surroundings. Soon, your hamster will be ready to play with you!


                             The Diet of Your Hamster
A hamster eats food just like us! But, they don't exactly eat the same type of food as we do. A hamster eats hamster food. You cannot feed them anything else. No other rodent food. Hamster food is what is healthy for them.

For a treat, hamsters usually prefer fruit. Although, you cannot feed them too much. If they get used to you feeding them fruit all the time, they wont eat their hamster food and they'll die. Also, if there are any leftover fruit bits in the cage or food bowl, because if they store it, they'll get chubby and a chubby hamster isn't good for you, or your hamster!

                                   A Cage for Your Hamster
Hamster cages are very important. It is where your hamster will live for the majority of his/her life. You need to make sure the cage has pet store boughten bedding. It's very important that your hamster has proper bedding. I would not recommend pine or cedar bedding. That is very uncomfortable for your hamster.

Hamsters also need toys and a hamster wheel in there, too. A hamster needs excersize while they live their daily lives and it is also great enjoyment for them, and for you! The hamster also needs his/her food bowl and drinking bottle. They need climbing play sets like ones you can buy at your local pet store, or sometimes they enjoy the ones that you make from hand! That's what I did for my hamster boy! They need to have a potty so they can be potty trained. It's important that your hamster goes to the washroom in a proper place.

The cages you can buy at your local pet store are best! Although, the colorful and designed ones with tubes and all that decoration isn't good. Hamsters need at least 360 square inches of floor space to run around in, even for a dwarf hamster! They need a lot of space! If you like decoration, decorate your barred cage the way you'd like!

                                  Hamster Occupation
Hamsters need play time most of the time. They should be usually occupied. The things that can occupy your hamster are things like a hamster ball to run around the house, a hamster wheel, chew toys, climbing equipment and much more! You can also play with your hamster to occupy him or her! They love your attention.

Hamsters enjoy playing outside, too. As long as you make sure he or she doesn't run off, they'll be extra safe and they'll have a lot of fun. Always have a hamster ball or something to keep track of him or her. No matter if they have a hamster ball, you should ALWAYS have your eye on them. Hamsters also enjoy sitting with you! They love getting to know you!

                               Bonding With Your Hamster
Many owners feel that they should have a bond with their little hamster, and they're correct. They really should. Having a bond with your hamster is one of the most important parts of owning a hamster! Do you need tips to bonding with your hamster? We've got some tips here!

•  You can sit in the bathtub (WITHOUT WATER RUNNING) and put your hamster in with you. You can let your hamster run around and climb on you. They like that and they'll get used to you! 
•   Hold your hamster close to you and let them smell you and know who you are.
• Take your hamster places to play, like outside or in a small room with you. Let them smell you.
• Feed your hamster little treats from the palm of your hand and they'll know you are safe.

 Those are 4 ways to bond with your hamster!

                            Bathing Your Hamster
Hamsters don't need to be bathed. They occasionally clean themselves, kind of like cats do. Although, you need to clean their cage so they don't become dirty. That's an important part of their hygiene.

You can give your hamster a sand bath. What a sand bath does is removes dirt from hamsters. You can purchase the proper sand for a hamster sand bath at your local pet store.

                            Sick Hamster
One of the most heart-breaking things in a hamster, and a hamster owner's life is the hamster getting sick. Don't worry, I know how to tell if your hamster is sick!

• If you are noticing white spots on your hamster, this could be a sign of White Spot
• If your hamster is wet in the tail or bottom area, this could be a sign of Wet Tail.
• Sometimes your hamster will begin to shake, this is a sign of the common hamster cold.

If your hamster is experiencing this, don't hesitate, go to your vet now! Your hamster could be sick and you need to know! So, get him or her checked out for your hamster's health and safety!

                          The Outdoors with Your Hamster

Hamsters love playing outside with you! They like to run around in their hamster ball or in the grass. It is safe for them to eat the grass. You NEED to keep an eye on him or her at ALL TIMES. A bird could dive down any second and take your hamster for lunch if you are not watching them. This is easily preventable. They also like being on their hamster leashes, purchaseable at your local pet store. As long as you follow this, you and your hamster are sure to have fun in the great outdoors!

                           Sleeping Arrangements

Your hamster likes to sleep on the bedding that you purchase at your local pet store. They sleep during the day and sleep in the night. This is called being nocturnal. Do you like playing with your hamster during the day? Don't fear! Your hamster can easily get used to being up, and it will gradually become normal. Although, you should still have your hamster sleep in another room, as they can be noisy. Don't worry, it's completely normal! Be sure he or she does get sleep, though!

That's my research for a hamster. This has been Riley Matthew's offical done research. This will be my last blog post before the hamster arrival post, but before that we will have a hamster countdown at lunch at school at noon or so. So, have a good night everyone! Thanks for reading.

finished at 8:55PM

Saving You Soon

Still, I feel bad for my little hamster being neglected right now. He had to spend last night in that same house. He probably thinks, "I am never gonna get out of here and have someone to love me." I will be that person though. I'll be the most LOVING person in the world to him! He'll be my very own and I'll never neglect him. I have a perfect day schedule for him.


Hamster's Schedule (Monday-Friday)

• Wake up in the morning and eat
• Play for a little bit
• At 8:30AM, go back to sleep, possibly until I return from school at 3:35PM. If he doesn't go to sleep, then play with his wheel or something.
• Auggie-Hamster time!
• I return home and we play some more
• Dinner!
• Play time again
• Alone time.
• Hamster-Owner time to calm down and settle in for a good night sleep.
• BEDTIME! 9:30PM

Hamster's Schedule (Weekends including possible long weekends and holiday breaks)

• Wake up in the morning and eat.
• Play for a little bit.
• Alone time for an hour or so, if needed.
• Play time for a bit longer.
• Nap time! 12:30PM-1:30PM
• Wake up and play.
• Alone time.
• (PLAYING OR ANYTHING UNTIL...)
• Dinner!
• Play time with friends and me and you.
• Alone time.
• Hamster-Owner TV watching to calm down and settle in for a good night sleep.
• BEDTIME! 9:30PM

We don't have to follow these schedules, it is just going to be the schedule to show his average day. So, he should know that there will be play time. There will always be play time unlike his past home. So, I am saving the poor thing!

another letter to my hamster

Hi, buddy! It's me again! I just wanted to let you know that you'll be okay. You will come home to me, and finally have a loving family. I know you still have one last night and almost 2 full days left, but you have to trust me. I will be there very soon. Soon this day will end and I'll go to school the next day. You and I'll spend our last night apart from each other. Than, I'll arrive from school at 3:35PM, and there you'll be. You'll be sitting there waiting. I'll run inside and see you. I want you to know how much I am happy saving you. Remember, I'll play with you. I know you may not be used to people, but I'll get you used to me, buddy. Okay? Trust me on this. I bet we'll be the people that each other loves most. I have a lot of friends who will love you! Farkle, my very close friend will love you. He's funny and I bet he'd like you. Lucas is a cowboy sorta guy. He is very sophisticated and gentle. For some quiet time, I bet you'll love him! My little brother, Auggie is 5 years old and he'll watch over you and play with you when I'm gone! My ex-best friend Maya, has a ferret named Ginger you might like to play with. Maya, well, you might not get to know her. I wish you could but I doubt it. The point is, you have everyone and everything you need here! Okay, one more night, 2 more days, I'll save you. I promise buddy, I'll save you.

Just a Little More Research

My timing for the hamster arrival has changed to two days from now! It is 1 day, 28 hours, 1707 minutes, and 102443 seconds left until the arrival. I'm very exact. So, I am very stoked to say I can finally stop saying the whole he/she thing. My new hamster is a....

A BOY!!! I am getting a boy hamster. So, I'm VERY excited to recieve him. Although, Caitlyn and Josie just weren't sure at first until my mom said she'd get them crafty little presents and they gave him up like that. So, I do have to do some more research. Just a little more. Normally, I wouldn't because I wouldn't think I'd be getting one until 1 month. Now, it's 2 days so I need to do the very last bit I can. So, tomorrow I will write a post with the offical information. I'll write the post late at night because I'll be most excited. So, about 24-26 hours from now, I'll write the official information post with all the information I wrote. I have a notebook at school that I am writing all of my memorized facts in. I spent the entire day writing it! Ever since 3rd period today! So, I've gotta go do a little bit more research. See ya guys tomorrow or maybe later!!

Save a Life

So, my hamster research stuff has been going great! The thing is, it's very expensive. But, I was offered a VERY good deal! So, my mom cleans a house every week for a backup job. She doesn't need it, she just feels bad for the dirty housed people, so she cleans. So, the girl she works for is named JC and they have a hamster of their own. The kids are about 12 and maybe 6, 7 or 8 years old. Caitlyn and Josie are their names. So, their hamster lives in their bathtub. It has a HUGE cage, they say. So, the kids HATE the hamster. They simply HATE him/her, whatever gender it is. JC said that the kids actually say that they hate the hamster. I felt TERRIBLE for the poor little thing. My mom said that I can safe it's life. I can take him/her home, along with it's cage and everything it owns for free, instead of getting my own new one. At first, I wanted my new one. But my mom told me I'll be saving it's life. The kids hate it SOOO badly. They never want to feed it and it starves sometimes. Next month instead of getting the hamster, I can get a ball or something for it. So, I've decided to save the little guy instead of buy a healthy one that is okay. He/She is not a little baby anymore, but it's not that big, really. So, I was offered this hamster for free. Wait Riley, why would you get a ball for it next month instead of the hamster? Oh yeah! That's where the BEST news comes in!! Instead of getting him/her next month, I'll get him/her for 100% FREE on Thursday!!! Yup! All I need to do is buy food and classic needs stuff for it, if it doesn't have it. Suddenly when I was walking down the stairs from my mom telling me about it, I began shrieking in excitement!! I am going to OFFICIALLY bring a hamster into the Matthews family!!

This is when my new song, Save a Life by The Fray comes in. I am saving a life. I am a lifesaver. I'll be loving, I'll be caring, I'll be whatever I need to be. Not that it's my birthday, but the thing I want most for my birthday or any special occasion, is to save a life. Saving a life is the best gift ever. I was thinking I wanted a new one, when I can have a good deal on another one, and I can save a life. Besides, the good thing about taking the one of JC's hands is that he/she is already used to people, and I don't have to leave them alone for a few days to let them get used to their surroundings. Also, I don't think it has a name yet, so I can name it. Thank God that I don't have to wait 28 days anymore!!! I'm going to save a life. Riley Matthews is a lifesaver. Saving a life is all I want to do!

Dear My New Hamster
You are used to being neglected in an unloving family. I've been surrounded with these situations. Now, don't expect that when you're here with me. Expect love and kindess. You can get a leash and go for walks with me! I can take you outside! My 5 year old brother, Auggie can hamster babysit you when I am not available! Any sickness, I will cure for you. A home you need, I will provide. You wont live in the bathtub, anymore. You'll have a room to run around in, and be free. I haven't met you, but I already care very much about you. I know you will never mean to hurt me. 2 days from now, you'll finally have a loving family. I am going to save your little life. We have a future together, and I'll hold on to you in my heart forevermore. You can be whatever you want with me. I'll always love you. Remember, I am here. If you need anything, I am in your life and I am your best friend. Always and forever, we will be together. I am going to hold onto you as long as I can! I'll never neglect you. God bless you and I pray that you'll be okay! I'm always there. Always there. Always....

So, in two days, everyone welcome the newest member to our family. Remember, we treat him/her with love and respect. Auggie, be an AMAZING and OUTSTANDING hamster babysitter, Farkle and Lucas, be AMAZING friends and try to help me out. And Maya, well, I know you don't care. But know, I have been with you through the times of your neglecting family. Now, you can relate to this little hamster. Just, remember that I'm helping this hamster, and I am open to you just as much. And I'm hoping him/her and Ginger might be able to be friends if we can't. They'll be the us we were in the past. And everyone else, support me through Google! Remember I am saving a life, and this is no fake.

I just figured out how to save a life.

When And Where

I am very excited to be taking a hamster into my care, but apart of me is afraid. Not afraid like I was with a fish, that it will be boring. Some of me is afraid of my hamster getting sick or not having anyone to play with. Although, this great new hamster website called MyHammie tells me not to place two or more teddy bear hamsters together in a cage to live together. They'll hurt each other until one is dead. Once one is dead, the other will be hurt and damaged and die shortly after. But, I am very happy to have a little hamster living in my house. The good thing is, they love being held. Only for the small period of time of just arriving home, they need to just be with me or alone to get used to it. I think that it should be with me because it needs to get used to it's owner who is constantly going to be with him, if anyone is. They love to play and get excersize. They love to run around in hamster balls, so that will be a very fun thing for me and the hamster! Auggie will be the baby sitter when I am at school. Let me get to what this post was really made for. This post is a guide for Auggie to take care of the hamster when I cannot be there for him/her. HERE'S YOUR GUIDE AUGGIE!

                   Riley's Guide to Hamster Baby-Sitting
When babysitting a hamster, Auggie, you need to be gentle. Being gentle with a hamster means that if you can tell he/she doesn't want to be held, don't force it. Or you will get a bite! You need to respect the hamster at all times. Remember, if I come home to an unhappy hamster, I'll be finding a new hamster baby sitter. No pressure for now! Read the following steps!

• If the hamster seems hungry, put a SMALL amount of food in the food bowl. Only add A LITTLE BIT more of he/she still is hungry. It's important not to feed them to much. A chubby hamster is no good for the hamster, or you!
• If the hamster wants to be alone, and put down if you are holding him/her, you have to put them down. It will result in a bite! This will make them unhappy.
• NEVER cage my hamster with ANY other animal. If the animal is bigger, it may hurt or eat my hamster. If it's smaller, my hamster may hurt or eat it, and that's not goo!
• If the hamster is sleeping, let him sleep. If you wake him/her, it will result in a cranky hamster.
• When the hamster wants to play and excersize, carefully take him/her out of his/her cage and place them in the hamster ball or on the hamster running wheel.
• When the hamster wants to be held or loved, you GENTLY pick him/her up and firmly hold him/her. Don't hold very tightly, as the hamster will choke. Be gentle. When he wants to get down, let him.
• NEVER let the hamster out of your sight. That will break my heart if he/she goes missing. 
• When you are in a room with the hamster, make sure he has no easy escapes.
• ALWAYS watch him/her.
• Make sure he/she is happy and healthy when I return home! We can play with him more!!!

If there is anything I missed here, I will tell you on your first hamster job! Remember, I don't pay you unless you teach the hamster a trick! If you do that, maybe you'll get a treat! I'd love to see some developments with him/her when I come back!

Soon enough, whenever and wherever, I'll have a hamster that YOU can babysit, Auggie! I hope you have a great time hamster-baby-sitting the hamster when and where you are!

One of the Cutest Things!

Okay, okay. I saw the funniest thing!! It's 9 year old Farkle performing on stage!!! Hahahahaha! He sings Don't Stop Believing. It's so adorable and rediculous!!!

Farkle Minkus- Don't Stop Believing

Here it is. Click that link. It's adorable!!! You gotta check it out!!!

St. Paul the 4th

I've decided to take on the responsibility you need to own a hamster. To take care of a hamster, it requires  a lot of work. So, to prepare myself for the job, I've joined a practice hamster care website. The hamster sleeps, drinks, and eats. You need to pay your attention to him when he needs. I chose a little grey hamster boy that I named St. Paul the 4th. I call him St. Paul. St. Paul is teaching me to care for my own hamster. St. Paul will prove if I am ready for a real Teddy Bear Hamster. He is a good tool to use for practice. So, once I can prove I can take care of St. Paul, I will be able to get a real hamster next month!!

You wanna have some practice with a hamster, too? Take care of St. Paul and you'll prove it. Take Care of St. Paul the Hamster when you click that link. He's ready for you, and for me!

Furry Friend (100th Post)

Hey guys! It's Riley Matthews and it is my 100th post on Take On The World! I would just make it about that, but I have an important story to tell you. Today, Auggie, my mom, my uncle and I decided to go to Petland to check out their fish stuff. We saw some fish make out sessions, too! After looking at the fish I realized it might be boring. So, I went to the baby Teddy Bear Hamsters! They are adorable, and I have officially decided to get one. I'm doing a lot of hamster research. On the 10th of November, I will offically welcome a new baby hamster to our Matthews family. Auggie is gonna be the hamster babysitter, and maybe the hamster can make friends with Ginger, Maya's ferret. I'm excited to see what this hamster can bring to the Matthews family! Welcoming a new furry friend to the Matthews Family!!!

Girl Meets World Pairings Wiki

My wiki, Girl Meets World Pairings Wiki is becoming quite a hit. Random editors have been editing and we are beginning to be quite like the original Girl Meets World Wiki. It's very fun to be the founder of the wiki. To view the wiki, click HERE and you'll go straight to it. It's doing very well. Our galleries and pages are becoming very realistic. We have a poll on the front page, and we have a rules page. We have another admin, we are just searching for more people! It's such a hit. So, maybe someone like Lucas, Auggie or Farkle, if you guys are reading this, you can join my wiki and maybe be an admin, because it's VERY fun!!! Thanks for viewing. CHECK BACK LATER!

Fish, Fish, Fishies!!

Hey guys! I know I just posted recently, but that was a little bit ago so... I have another topic. My parents agreed that next month, I can get a pet!! I am gonna get a goldfish!! I will wake up one morning, and see a little GOLDFISH!!! I am Soo excited. I cannot wait to raise my own goldfish. Goldfish actually have more to them than you think they do. They have personalities. They can be timid and shy, or outgoing and ready to swim. They don't have eyelids, so it's important that when they need to nap or sleep that you turn out the lights because a goldfish cannot sleep in the light. I've read a lot of information, and it said many new owners make mistakes with them and they die within months or even weeks. I am very worried for my new goldifsh that he/she might die very soon. That is why I am doing research to keep my goldfish VERY happy and healthy. I am also afraid to overfeed it. But, I wont make that mistake. I am reading right now, 12 mistakes that new owners make with fish, that I don't have to. So, I will soon have a new goldfish to come home to the Matthews house!!

Dedication Songs

The song, When You're Gone reflects how I feel right now, besides for thr fact that DQ Blizzard is trying to puke outta me. My other mood. I miss Maya. I miss her more than anything. I can't take this anymore. I want her to be my best friend again!! When shes gone, the words I need to hear wont come. I wont hear what I need to hear everyday. I need to hear that she's my best friend. The colored parts are what represent me.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

(Chorus)

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

(Bridge)

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone
All the words I need to hear will always get me through
The day and make it ok

I miss you

Basically every part was underlined. I can't deal with this pain right now. I miss her so much, right now. I need her more than I need Farkle. Yeah, Farkle helped me through a lot. He helped me with the Matthew West stuff. He was just there. Now, I need a best friend to talk to about Farkle. I have nobody to tell my feelings to. I have nobody who can laugh with me about the stupidist things. I have nobody to tell me I'm weird. I'm alone. All alone. 

Another song that represents me is Alone Again by Alyssa Reid. It doesn't represent generally Maya, it represents a lot of my situation of life. Maya is apart of it, but other people and things are too. And this is a song for this...

Maya Situation Representation:            
Farkle Situation Representation:             
Matthew West Stuff Representation:          
Both Maya and Farkle:         

Til now, I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met youAnd now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone?

The phone call
Can you stop the free fall?
Can you be the reason
I can see beyond the lies

If I keep holding on?

I hear you
(Hear you)

Can you stop the screaming?
(Screaming)
Did you stop believing?
I could feel you letting go

I can't be alone tonight

When you said I could move on and go
You said I'm weak and it shows
I couldn't go on without you

Now I'm sitting in this house alone
Wondering why I left home
And I'm hoping that you know that

Til now, I always got by on my own

I never really cared until I met you

(Til I met you)

And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone?

And leave me
(Leave me)
I know you see right through me
(Through me)
I finally thought you knew me
Well enough to know with you

I feel so ordinary

It's a crime scene
(Crime scene)
Someone killed our last dream
(Last dream)

Did you stop believing?
I can feel you letting go
I can't be alone tonight

When you said I could move on and go

You said I'm weak and it shows
I couldn't go on without you

Now I'm sitting in this house alone
Wondering why I left home
And I'm hoping that you know that

Til now, I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
(Til I met you)
And now it chills me to the bone

How do I get you alone?
How do I get you alone?

Wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Woah, I hope that it won't end though

Alone...

And I'm hoping that you know that

Til now, I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
(Til I met you)

And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone?

Til now, I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you

(Til I met you)
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone?
How do I get you alone?

Now that was Alone Again by Alyssa Reid. A lot of it represents Matthew West stuff (surprisingly) and alot Maya, and some Maya and Farkle. Not much just Farkle, though. That was that song.

This next song is my newest song, Maybe by Kelly Clarkson. It's a song that really represents me. Not a certain situation, but me.

I'm strong but I break
I'm stubborn and I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah, I'm hard and life with me is never easy

To figure out, to love I'm jaded but, oh, so lovely

All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know when you'll see
Just how sweet it can be

If you'll trust me, love me, let me, maybe, maybe

Someday when we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand

Without feeling lost, without all the excuses

When it's just because you love me, you let me
You need me then maybe, maybe

All you have to do is hold me

And you'll know when you'll see
Just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me, maybe, maybe

I'm confusing as hell, I'm north and south

And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world

Without you and I promise I'll try
Yeah, I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me

Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe, maybe, yeah, maybe
Yeah, maybe, maybe, yeah, maybe, maybe

One day we'll meet again and you'll need me

You'll see me completely every little bit
Oh yeah, maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then

I don't wanna be tough
And I don't want to be proud

I don't need to be fixed
And I certainly don't need to be found, I'm not lost

I need to be loved, I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you

And I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe, maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, maybe

I should know better than to touch the fire twice

But I'm thinking maybe, yeah, maybe you might
Maybe, love, maybe

That was Maybe by Kelly Clarkson, my new song. It really represents me. That is the last song I am doing today. Tune in for more songs that represent me.

What's Your Problem?!

I am tired of Maya. Seriously, she was watching Dog With a Blog normally and suddenly she didn't want to anymore and Auggie began freaking out. Yeah, Auggie makes sense. I know he hates Dog With a Blog so, I am not mad at him, really. But Maya, what's the big idea!?! I know she's not Auggie and doesn't hate it like he does, or at all. Then, she's forcing us to watch the WORST movie ever, Halloweentown. I hate that movie. I hate that dumb Marnie and that ANNOYING Sophie and that stupid brother of theirs. They are all annoying!!! Then, I ask Farkle what he thinks. And like always, the kid agrees with Maya!!! He may be hurt right now from Lucas banging his head onto a pole to knock sense into him, but he's clearly well enough to take her side. Seriously, he should really stop letting his dumb fear of her get in the way of his true opinion. She has no right to make him agree with her, and he should seriously stop letting that DUMB fear get in the way. I understand he is hurt, but he can stand up for himself and not let her make him choose her side. They all need to get a handle on theirselves besides for Lucas and Auggie. Auggie just doesn't like the show and he never has since 2012, and it makes sense. Lucas said he doesn't care what we watch. He wasn't taking my side, but he didn't take hers so I'm okay with him. So, what the heck is Maya's problem right now!?! I understand with Auggie and Lucas. Not Maya and Farkle. He should stop letting that dumb fear get in the way of his opinion, even if that was true. But I bet like all the normal people, he really didn't care what we watch. And Maya needs to seriously get a grip and realize that her dumb may I emphasize DUMB movie would be my LAST pick to watch. VERY VERY LAST!!! So, get a grip people!!!

Just Makes It Worse

Big, big news! The worst Season 1 episode of Girl Meets World is airing for Disney next!! It's Girl Meets Flaws. Ewwww!!! There's clips and the promo for it. It kills me. Those clips and that dumb promo kills me. Farkle literally took my DS and made me record the promo on my DS. Ughh..... I HATE FLAWS. Maya is really interested to see what happens. Although by seeing that, makes me feel bad for Farkle in that episode. Well, here's the clips and promo....

Watch it and you'll see why it kills me. Thanks for watching or reading!

It's About Time

In the background of what I was doing, the new episode, Girl Meets World: Of Terror got over. They had not commercial for Crazy Hat (muffins episode). So, I've offcially decided to watch it. I cannot take not seeing it. Guess how long ago I should have seen it? 3 weeks ago, so here we go. It's about time. The only issue is, the only full episode is not avaiable in this country, for what I've seen so far. It's still about time so... here we go...

Hurtful but True

Tonight was the offical night of Youth Night. Or so I thought. I apparently wasn't old enough to go, and Maya, Lucas, and Farkle supposedly were. I got very mad and I wanted to go home because there was nothing in it for me just staying for an hour and then having to go home while I watch happy teens go to Youth Night. I got mad that I hit Maya, and like a real jerk, she hit me back. I was really mad so we called my mom and the security guard told her we were hitting each other so she made us come home. When we were waiting for my mom outside, Maya was just screaming the most hurtful things to me ever. They seemed so true. She said I'm the most unpopular girl in school, and nobody likes me. She said I need to take Missy's advice and grow up. She said "no wonder you have no friends." I was torn apart by that, and I believe it. I'm not worth the world. The world has no time for me. Obviously, people just go out of there way to be rude and yell at me. I just stood there and tried to stop myself from crying when 2 girls came to us. I thought, "Oh no, more people to take her side after Farkle did, basically." Then, the two girls stuck up for me and said Maya needs to get a life. Maya said I was acting like I was 7, and those girls said that Maya was, and by telling me that, she was making a fool out of herself. I thought, "Really? I'm worth your precious time? Shouldn't you be swimming or something, not sticking up for me?" What Maya said was hurtful, but it felt very true. The whole way home I cried. I cried softly with my head into the seat, covered in my sweater. I got home and rushed into my room and the minute the door was closed, I broke into tears. I grabbed my blankets that were thankfully in my room, and I sat against the wall and cried. I got into my pyjamas and came to listen to sad songs like Avril Lavigne. Now, I'm here. Just a girl who isn't worth the time of anyone. I doubt even Farkle, precious little Farkle who I never thought would be mean, probably doesn't wanna be with me right now, or ever. I thought Maya and I had everything. Apparently, we have everything all right. Everything bad. I don't even have someone like Farkle or Lucas to run to. I can just cry to my blankets hoping for a reply, but not recieving one. Maybe I wont wake up tomorrow, maybe I will. All I know is Maya said those things for a reason. She said them because they're true.

Take Me Away

I have a new song and it's called Take Me Away by Natasha Bedingfield. It's a decent song that was made in 2007 and is re-gained popularity within August-October. So, it's kind of popular. I think that my friends have heard it, but still. That's my new song!!

Don't even dare click that play button if you're one of my friends. Thanks for considering. Check back for more posts on Take On The World.

I'm The Broken Girl!!!!

To Maya
Hey, Maya. For the last time, that is my song you leave it ALONE!! You may not be listening to it or have heard it before (for what I know....) but that is my stuff BUG OFF!!! Okay, that's mine and you leave it alone. You have to quit with that or else I'll do something to your number 1 song. You may not be doing it to mine, but Broken Girl and Listen To Your Heart are the same protectiveness. Convinient also that you basically know the lyrics. So, you stop saying your like it and if you have, don't listen to my song AGAIN! Not saying you did, just saying IF you did. Okay, that's my song and I have EVERY SIGNLE RIGHT to do that about yours. Nevermind the fact that you ALSO mentioned Best Friends Forever. Anyways, I'll do it right back at ya because every single time I read over you saying you're the broken girl, kills me more and makes me wanna do this even more!!! So, maybe I should listen to my heart and leave this friendship. My heart is telling me that this friendship is not going to work out. So, just leave it at that. First you offend the only true friend I have other than Lucas and then you mess with Matthew West. I wont tolerate that. So, I'll listen to my heart and GET OUT OF THIS! So, the point of this is I AM THE BROKEN GIRL AND YOU ARE NOT! Even if I am not, YOU'RE NOT EITHER!!! It's closer me than you!! You can be upset, BUT DON'T CALL IT WHAT I CALL IT! That's my song, my stuff, and I wont stand for it. You can find a new best friend and you can listen to their songs and make posts about it. Because I wont be offended by your posts. Thos are MY songs not YOURS. So, leave them alone. Until you get yourself together and quit with my songs, I'm done here and you can go to Farkle ALLLL you want. I'll have Lucas then. Besides, Farkle and I haven't been so cool lately so take him! He is mean to me all the time, so TAKE THE KID. I don't want him. Nothing is worth it for me. All I had was those songs, and you've taken that away from me. So, find a new friend. Make it Kellie or someone to replace me!! I don't care. Until you straighten out your song-stealing-post-making-about-my-songs act, were done. And if anything I AM THE BROKEN GIRL BECAUSE I GOT THAT FROM MY SONG. NOWHERE ELSE SAYS THAT BESIDES FOR MY SONG! IT'S NOT AN EVERDAY SAYING!!!! So, stop, just STOP.

Be Without Me

Maya is seriously not a true friend anymore. I didn't wanna be rude after school by saying this, but now I can. I actually hung out with Jenaya today and it was REALLY fun and she was so nice and considerate, two things Maya isn't. Jenaya actually is like a true best friend. Someone you'd actually want. She's fun, nice, considerate, smart, and she is anything BUT annoying. I can't take Maya anymore. I can't take Farkle anymore. I can't take any of them anymore. Lucas isn't bad, but he's one of them. I just wont do this anymore. I'd like to say goodbye to them. Now, I can go live a life of my own. A life that involves new friends, new people. I am tired of them pushing me around. We never fight this much normally, and I am not just talking about Maya. I'm talking about Farkle too. Luckily, Lucas and I didn't go there. If I am gonna hang out with any of them again, it'll be Lucas. What did Farkle ever do, you ask? Well (like always), Maya and I got in a fight and she pushed me into a fence. Farkle (like always) took her side and Lucas just followed for the good of being popular, or whatever they are. Then, in Religion class I thought, "finally, the last period of the day and no annoying people." Then Farkle sat beside me, "Lady" he said not meaning it. Like how dumb Mackenzie Doucette calls me bestie and she OBVIOUSLY doesn't mean it and is just doing it to annoy me. He kept wrapping his arm around me, sarcastically. Normally when he hugged me, I was ok with it, but every time I just smacked him off of me and said stop. I literally had to complain about him twice to Mr. Mhehe, the sub for Mrs. Young. Mr. Mhehe made him move, finally. But, to all of those people, be without me. I'm tired of all of this fighting. Until we can all get ourselves in order, be without me. I mean, all of us get in order, even me. Even Lucas who did nothing, really. Normal him is not a bystander. He would've came to me. Until were all back in order with ourselves, be without me.

Find Yourself A Better Friend

I'm officially finished with Maya and Farkle. DONE!!! They are so mean. I still don't mind Lucas. He's the only good one. I hate Maya and Farkle's guts SOOOOOOO badly!! I cried at the park with Lucas. I miss the old them. I liked Farkle really caring about me, and I miss Maya being my best friend. No, no. I'm done with them. I need better friends. I'll find someone else. I'll stick by Lucas, and find new better people. Maybe like Alanie or Maya Watson from school. Or Jenaya! Jenaya is the girl who always calls me her bestie. I always thought she never meant it until yesterday when she was being forced by Brandon in our class to tell her crush, and she said she'd tell her best friend. I thought her best friend was Maya W. It's not. She came and whispered "Cory" to me. Cory is a kid in the other grade 7 class. I said my dad is Cory too. Also, when we were doing a science lab together, she wanted to share half the chair with me. So, maybe she can be my new best friend.

I need a new female best friend. A girl I can laugh with and go to. Someone who I know wont judge me for ANYTHING. Anything at all. She'll let me do what I want, unless it's for the best that I don't. She'll tell me the truth. Of course, this is just a dream.

I need someone to replace Farkle. Someone like him who is overprotective and overreacts about the smallest things (like the bruise along my hand today that Farkle freaked out about). Someone who always knows when something is up, and knows not to expose my secrets. Again, just a dream.

To Maya and Farkle:
Yeah, for you. Forget about me. I am only causing harm. I never meant to hurt you, but I'm not doing you any good. All I do is talk about my own life issues which aren't even a big deal. I'll live, I will. So will you without me. Please forget about me. Just try. Find yourself a better friend. I'm not doing you any good. Find someone who really feels you're important, not someone who hurts you every day. I appreciate all that you've done for years and years, but I don't need this anymore, and neither to you. I'm not for you anymore. Just forget about me. Find yourself a better friend.

From Riley Matthews

FIND A BETTER FRIEND

Jema10's Theory

A girl on wikia (blah) named Jema10 is a Filey and Laya shipper. So, she makes comments EVERYWHERE about it. I mean everywhere. So, here's a conversation between Jema10 and I. It's crazy!! I am Riley-Matthews121, btw.

Here's where Jema10 begins:
Jema 10: I ship Laya personally. However at this point, the writes said that the first season would mostly focus on friendships and not romance. (Despite the last episode where Lucas supposedly asks Riley out)

Riley-Matthews121: Yeah, Laya. Oh, and what did you edit on the Lucas and Maya page? I am a moderator, I wont delete it. I just wanna know because I am interested in Laya!!!

Jema10: Oh just the moments in the new episode. There were a few spelling/formatting errors and I wanted it to look nicer. Laya <3 By the way, what other pairing do you ship outside of GMW? I love all l/h relationships, so Folive and Seddie and all that.

Blah, blah, boring talk. Here's where things get real....

Riley-Matthews121: (about Missy and Farkle) I don't see it. It's like Faya, there is no way they could make it work. Missy would never fall for Farkle nor would Farkle fall for her. Maya, would NEVER fall for Farkle, either.

Jema10: Riley could.

Riley-Matthews121: Really? You really think I could?

Blah, blah. Talking about gym teachers, now again, real stuff....

Jema10: Yeah, you guys can go make another thread for gossiping about gym teachers. :P Anyway, Riley/Farkle seems so sweet. Stuart Minkus never got Topanga, Farkle should get Riley.

Riley-Matthews121: I guess that's true. I guess we'd be cute.

That's where it ended. Note, at the end when I said we'd be cute, I didn't mean it!!! Well, that is the theory of Jema10 of wikia.

Perfection

Everyone in the world doesn't see me for perfection. Yeah, I know I am amazing, but nobody sees my parents as perfection either. Were equal. Only Farkle sees perfection in me. I don't see how he sees it, because nobody is perfect. Especially when I look... nevermind!!! So, a line from one of my songs says this....

It reads, "Those Damaged Goods You See In Your Reflection, Love Sees Them Differently, Love Sees Perfection." While I look at myself as damaged, others see perfection through all of that. This is really a key to life. No matter how much damages and defeations you see in your life, someone out there always sees perfection. That's a key to life.

Someone Who Knows Me

Last night, Maya insisted Farkle and Lucas come over. So, they did. We all doodled on DS's. Maya and Farkle were doing it together, so Lucas came to me to do it. That made Farkle upset. Also, Lucas kept graffiting me and putting bows in my hair on the DS and said I finally look beautiful. A part of me thought I had inner beauty, just not outer beauty. Another part said, "Come on, Riley. Remember, perfection" but I just couldn't think of love seeing perfection. Then it did. Farkle told him to stop and that I am beautiful, inside and out. Then, I think this is when Farkle left Maya. He wasn't gonna be in her team anymore. Then Maya just sat there for a bit. I had my back turned and Farkle seemed worried about me when I kept my back. He came to me and hugged me. I kept on asking him why he was being so nice to me. He said I deserve it. So, then I asked him if he really thinks I am beautiful. He said I am, and he made it specific. "Every little part of you is beautiful. Even the ugliest injuries are beautiful." He said. "I don't think you wanna see my injuries." I said and then I explained the injury I still had from when I was 4 and it is underneath the 4th toe on the right foot. He said more about scratches on me being beautiful. "What..." I said drifting off. "You know, Riley." He said. I got confused, and then I didn't. Then it was there. Something I waited for. Someone understands me without even asking me what's the matter. How did he just suddenly know what was going on? He clearly did. I was half asleep and I'm pretty sure this actually went on, but Lucas asked what happened to me. Like, what was going on? Farkle said he shouldn't tell him, and that it would hurt me. To myself in my head I thought, "Why's Farkle acting like he knows something?" And then there it was. He really payed a lot of attention to me. If he didn't, he wouldn't know what's up with me. He'd think I'm normal. He wouldn't know what's going on with me. He pays attention to me, clearly. Knowing that there is actually proof of him loving me and paying undivided attention to me, feels great because it's OBVIOUSLY real!!! Off topic comment, but Lucas ended up fixing up Maya. He just randomly hugged her. It was random. She hugged back tightly. I was confused but it was cute!!! Well,  Farkle knows me very well. And I'm not afraid to tell him anything anymore.

By Your Side

I have a new song. It's kind of like... well some other songs I have. I have some songs based like this. Um, it's called By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North. I know for a FACT that all of my friends have heard it. Frenquelly, it comes on the Christian Station. (Uggh, another Matthew West). Just kidding, that's okay. I'm not upset about that. It's actually pretty popular on the station, so I will less wanna listen to the Christian station. Though, I'd rather it come on than Matthew West. Because if my friends hear it it'll be like, 'oh I've heard this' and it wont be that bad because clearly they've heard it. But Matthew West, they'll actually hear it for the FIRST time (unless those idiots who think it's a nice idea to listen to my songs ALREADY HAVE). I know my friends wouldn't though. Alright, so don't listen to it! That was my post for By Your Side.

Another Night of... Well Nights

So, a lot went on after swimming. Apparently, Auggie really likes Lucas. He was piggybacking him around the house and I had to be the wolf that had to chase them. Then, we decided to go to bed. I apologized to Farkle and Maya for being rude to them and I went to sleep. Well, stuff went on inbetween there like, oh, here's something really funny! Lucas kissed Maya's head when she was upset, and then he didn't even realize he did it until after!!! He was always like, "Did I just do that?" and Maya said, "Yeah...." very disturbed. Anyway, I'm not gonna say much about what Farkle and I did at that time, but I'll inform you something about it. He wanted me to write a blog page that I can send to him because he thinks I am keeping a secret. Of course, who wouldn't be? He convinced me pretty well, actually, that I should tell someone. Maybe that someone being him. I'd tell Maya, but I have the same situation that she does when she apologizes. I feel she wont wanna talk about it, or be annoyed of me or something. If you really had the right idea, you'd know why. Farkle made his honest guesses on what was bothering me. He knows that if I actually mean something, I'll be enthusiastic. Like this for an example. "Do you still like us?" He asked and I began freaking out saying yes. He asked if it was Matthew West stuff and I said no. He said that's all he had in mind. Well, yeah. That's been another night of nights. I guess I might write that blog page for Farkle. We never know.