Not My Problem This Time

Guess what? Maya and I made up last night. I said I was willing to do what it takes to be her best friend, and she said she was too. Actually, that was a BIG FAT LIE. She said she doesn't want to lose her reputation of her and 2 other of her friends and she wanted to be with them at lunch. I said that's okay, but she KNEW I didn't mean it. She knew it. I started crying because I didn't think I was worth her's or anybody's time. I knew that I was just an embarassment. Then, Auggie came in to rescue me, and be the hero. So, I thank Auggie for that! And Auggie, if you're reading this, Thank You So Much, I Love You! Anyway, so this fight is actually Maya's problem now. It's her responsibility to fix this, because I didn't ask for this. If I apologize, it's like, for what? Then I'd say, "for letting you sit with your more popular friends than me and you can lose your reputation with me now." I really don't think that's anything to apologize about. I hope on my life that Reaction Girl is at school today, so I can sit with her. And if not, I'll sit with Sarah, because I bet she likes me better then Maya because they got in a fight. So, I'd like to say that this fight isn't my problem. I admit, the other ones (the majority of them, not all of them) were my problem to fix. Now, this one's hers. I did NOT ask for this one bit. She basically held it in my face screaming, take it take it! (Not literally). So, I'll just be on my own today, HOPEFULLY with Reaction Girl and if not, Sarah, and if not, I could get Lucas. So, that's it for today. I might write again later about my terrible lunch hour.

It's Not Much, It's Simple

Sometimes, the response that you recieve from people for saying a certain thing isn't what you wanted. It's not bad, but sometimes, you just want them to say the simplest thing, that could've made you go nuts in happiness. Sometimes, they don't know what to say, but all you wanted was something short.

Example:
This is an example of something...

WHAT YOU WANT TO HAPPEN: Someone says, I love you to someone. All they want is the other person to respond with, "I love you too"

WHAT YOU DON'T WANT TO HAPPEN: Someone says I love you to someone. They respond with, "thanks!"

So, sometimes all you have to say is something so simple to brighten them up. Or do something so simple. It's simple, just do it.

Sickening Suicides

Hey guys. It's Riley. I was at school today until lunchtime. I ran 18 suicides today, and almost puked. It was Period 2 gym. So, in History I asked my dad to call home sick. He said that he'll let me go at lunch because I should drop Auggie off, too. So, I waited til lunch. Then, I walked Auggie to school and he and I are friends again! Him and I talked about Kindergarten and Ava being bossy at recess. Then, I came home and watched Phineas and Ferb and Jessie. I am FOR SURE going tomorrow. Not because my mom said I had to, but because I want to. The good thing is, I'm missing my double math periods right now! SO YAY. So, that's my stupid suicide in gym story. I am glad that I don't have gym tomorrow... stupid fitness dice!!

My Own Little Thoughts... I Guess It's About Time You Know

Okay, for the past 3-4 months I've had a song in my playlist. No other song then song number 25. What is it? Hero by Superchick. I've kept those lyrics to myself, because I could not relate to them one bit and I liked the song in general, so there was no point. Now, I can relate to those lyrics, and it's about time I reveal them. I mean, have I ever written a post called "Hero Relation"? No. I am now.

These are the lyrics that represent me...

Chorus
Heroes are made when you make a choice
You could be a hero
Heroes do what's right
You could be a hero, You might save a life
You could be a hero, You could join the fight
For what's right for what's right for what's right

Verse 2
No one talks to her, she feels so alone
She's in too much pain to survive on her own

Verse 1, I have no relation to because the story is about a boy. So, the chorus is a relation to me too. Let me get you through it. You could be a hero, heroes do what's right. And when I saw Auggie's post about Happy Birthday Riley, I knew he was a hero who did what was right. Auggie is my hero. You might save a life, and join the fight for what's right. What's right is to stand up for people who are bullied. Today, that was me. Auggie is my hero. Auggie basically saved me. My life is a wreck, and I wanted to give up. Auggie saved my life. No one talks to her, she feels so alone. That is very true. Nobody talks to me, and I'm always alone. People just don't like me, no reason. It's been that way since I was 9. She's in too much pain to survive on her own. Honestly, I wont get myself through life like this. I can't survive on my own, and one day I wont. So, I guess it's about time you knew what those lyrics really are. Bye...

It's My Birthday... you could say

Hey guys. Today's my 13th birthday. Normally, I'd be happy about that. I'm not. People have been so mean to me at school and ignoring me. People have been treating me terribly and physically beating me down. Daniela, the nicest girl ever, told me, "Sucker, have the worst birthday" and then dropped her math textbook on my head. There is 453 pages in that thing. She dropped it on my head, and I almost threw up, it felt like that. My birthday has been a total disaster. This has not only been the worst birthday, but the worst day of my life. I could never live a worse day.

So basically unhappy birthday to me. I hated this day. I'd rather die.

This Betrayal Means 100% Done

I HATE MAYA SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BADLY RIGHT NOW YOU HAVE NO IDEA! SHE IS THE WORST PERSON IN THE WORLD AND I AM NEVER FORGIVING HER!!!!!!!!!! SHE IS SO STUPID AND I AM CRYING BECAUSE OF THAT DIRTY STUPID GIRL. I HATE HER SO BADLY. SHE IS THE WORST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, okay. I had to calm down. Here's the story, long story short. Maya threatened to listen to one of my songs she never heard and she almost did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh ya, and it's not just ANY song, it was my old number 1. Best Friends Forever. Yeah! She threatened to do that! I HATE THAT GIRL SO BAD. I always thought if I tried, I could go back to normal with her and we could be okay. Now, I'm not even gonna think about trying!!!! I am never forgiving that idiot!!!!!!!!

This very true quote was made by me. This was to say, yeah, if your best friend even has the thought about betraying you, you know that they are a bad friend. I could never think of anything so true.

This is true. You can try to fix the vase, but it will never be the same. The only part that isn't true about this, is the fact of "you can fix it." This can't be fixed EVER.

Okay, this quote is the MOST true. Maya only wanted to betray me to make herself feel better. I hate her for that!!!

I hate Maya's gutt. I will NEVER EVER EVER forgive her.

I'm In Better Hands Without You

In this post, I'm going to be doing more relation lyrics. There might be a lot of relation highlighted, because my song represents me so badly; kinda like Everytime We Touch. That said, let me introduce you to my new song, In Better Hands by Fefe Dobson. It's such a good song, and I relate to it.

Here are my lyrics with the highlighed parts as the relation parts! ENJOY.

Three strikes, we tried
Now I'm in better hands
I know this may sound impolite
But I'm in better hands

Knew I had to let it be
Losing your identity
You became my shadow
Thought I'd make you understand
Drop before I got a man
Dude had to hit the road

This has become so uncool fast
Guess we weren't built to last

Three strikes, we tried
Now I'm in better hands
I know this may sound impolite
But I'm in better hands

Three strikes, we tried
You know I'm in better hands

That overall nicotine
Abs and your skinny jeans
How they always hotter than mine
You get under my skin
When you take me up there
Then I pay the bill every time

Three strikes, we tried

Now I'm in better hands
I know this may sound impolite
But I'm in better hands

Three strikes, we tried
You know I'm in better hands

Every night I lay beside you
Knew there was more for me
Found someone who's nothing like you
Hands fit perfectly

Every night I lay beside you
Knew there was more for me
Found someone who's nothing like you
Hands fit perfectly

Three strikes, we tried
Now I'm in better hands
I know this may sound impolite
But I'm in better hands

Three strikes, we tried
You know I'm in better hands

So, those were my relation lyrics. Such a relation. It gets to me. Well, thanks for reading that quickly! BYE.