How To Heal A Heartbreak?

As I've explained earlier, I lost my friends. My best friend, and Farkle. Both of them, gone. Out the door, and I don't think I'll be talking to any of them. You all heard the story of how I let them go at my post called In Memory of What Was Lost which you can read HERE. I feel so lost without them. I feel like my world has been torn apart. All I really had in life was them, and I've just been taken away from them. I feel like I cannot go on. The 2 people I loved both just left me. I was made fun of for Farkle, which chased him off. He said and I quote, "If we are just gonna be made fun of for being friends, why fight for our friendship anymore?" and he just took off, leaving me heartbroken, on my own. Maya told me to cope life without her. I can't do this. Both of them are just gone and I can't take this. After both of them took off on their own seperate ways, I just went to the Spider Park and sang songs to myself. I sang Best Friends Forever, If I Die Young, All I Can Do, and my number one song called Your Friend. I was done crying after Farkle took off on me. I decided to go back home to Maya's cousin's house. Her cousin coincidently named Riley helped me out earlier. She is doing something somewhere. She's not here. I just wrote blog posts because Quotev was deleted.

My best friend, and my other close friend both took off on me. Still those words they said to me keep replaying in my head one after the other. I feel like I have to slap my head, and make it stop. It wont stop. How can I heal this heartbreak? They both left me heartbroken. With Maya, I understand. I guess I hurt her, and I wish I could fix that. But Farkle, well, he just left me. Out of the blue, gone. I feel bad for Maya. I just wish I could heal this heartbreak. How to heal a heartbreak? I have no clue...

In Memory of What Was Lost

Everybody has someone who cares about them. It's nice to have someone like that. For 6 straight years, you've had that same person caring for you. Constantly, they were by your side. They'd never betray you, and if so, it always turned out to be a misunderstanding. You stayed with that person for so long. You had it perfect with them. A betrayer, nonsense. This was your content best friend. They had your back and supported with everything you had, and wanted. It was somebody to say to you when you're upset and you lie and say you're okay, "No you're not," and that feeling is good. They just simply loved you. You had that same feeling back for them. You always felt like they would be there for you, and that they'd be with you. Everyday and night, you wanted them. You couldn't bare to spend a moment apart. So, every moment of every day was your guys' time to be you. Together is what you were. Always together through what life brought to you. There was nothing that could split you apart. Nobody got between you. You had your other close friends, but they were something special. You loved everyone around you, and loved them most, though. You never said it, but it was true. You just simply loved them, and they simply loved you. Nothing would have changed that... in your mind.

Say you lost the person who cared about you. They told you to move on from them. So, you do as they say. Finally, you find someone who cares enough to stay with you for a while. You feel so at home with this person, like they have to stay with you forever. You feel they care, and it's more than what you thought it'd be. They told you, "I care." and they kept constantly saying it. Love was just there. They clearly cared for you. They were happy to take the place of your past friend for now. Suddenly, after spending time with them, like they were your own, someone says something. About you and them. They make fun of you for spending so much time with each other, and for having that one person. Suddenly, your interest drops for them. If you are going to be made fun of for them, why do it? So, you talk it through with them, and you go your seperate ways. You're left alone because of that person who made fun of you, and the person who you lost first. Loneliness is down your road, and all you can do is cry and listen to songs you can relate you. Now, you don't have a person to relate to. Nobody to make you laugh, smile, or make you feel like home. It's all just... gone like that. Just gone. You never thought it would end, but it did...

This is the first story. The friendship that was just suddenly lost. The one that meant something. The one that you had for those six years, that you never thought would end. The one that you had friends to say you aren't okay.
In Memory of What Was Lost Between Riley Matthews and Maya Hart

The second story was true, as well. That's when the friendship of Riley Matthews and Farkle Minkus was explained. It was the one about the friendship that was made fun of, and they just left each other because of that. No more Farkle and Riley was there, anymore.

In Memory of What Was Lost Between Riley Matthews and Farkle Minkus

In my life, this is what was worth fighting for. This was it. Now, I can't even fight for this, so what do I fight for? Now, all I have is the memory of what was lost.

Shake It Off

Shake It Off by Taylor Swift is my new song! I love it and everyone hates it out of my friends. So, here it is on Take On The World.

Here it is! Thanks for reading!

Amazing by Janelle Lyrics

So folks, I have a new song called Amazing by Janelle. I am gonna give the lyrics here because I am gonna sing it for the singing thing with Maya tonight. Here are the lyrics.

The morning cold and raining,
Dark before the dawn could come
How long in twilight waiting
Longing for the rising sun

Ohoh ohoh

You came like crashing thunder
Breaking through these walls of stone
You came with wide eyed wonder
Into all this great unknown

ohoh ohoh

Hush now don't you be afraid
I promise you I'll always stay
I'll never be that far away
I'm right here with you

[Chorus]
You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are

You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...
You are

You came from heaven shining
Breath of God still flows from fresh on you

The beating heart inside me
Crumbled at this one so new

Ohoh ohoh

No matter where or how far you wander
For a thousand years or longer
I will always be there for you

Right here with you

[Chorus]
You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...

I hope your tears are few and fast
I hope your dreams come true at last
I hope you find love that goes on and on and on and on and on

I hope you wish on every star
I hope you never fall too far
I hope this world can see how wonderful you are

[Chorus]

You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing...

You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...
You are

That's lyrics to Amazing, my new song!

Mad Parent

My dad got mad at me today in History. He was talking about the history of people back in the days how they did things. He said "Sometimes you want to forget your daughter's history." and he gave me a sharp look. I sunk down in my desk, embarrassed... of him! Not me, him. Some of the people in the back looked at me weird. I heard some of them murmur "what did she do?" and I was so embarrassed. Still of him. Why can't parents just be.... not like my dad? And after lunch, I have another class with him. I am doing a fun, REALLY FUN, project and he might not let me do it. So, wish me luck with him as a teacher and a father.

The Thing You Want To Hear

Days ago, things went on. One day, I made Farkle feel bad and then I felt bad for that. We ended up kissing. Of course, we did in the episodes, too. Since then, we have kissed 4 times. So, I've been close with him lately. He's been kinda someone I can lean on. So, I've been jealous of anyone who really has a relationship with him (besides him crushing on Maya, which is normal). So, last night Maya and I were fighting pretty badly. I was almost crying, she already was. She somewhat was fighting because she was all alone. I was planning to stay with Farkle and Auggie that night, Auggie in the middle but he got scared and went upstairs so my plan was to stick with Farkle that night. So, Maya said she wanted Farkle and I was very defensive of that. I denied her. She said that we can share Farkle. I said no, and I want him. So, we fought. Eventually, she kinda confirmed that we are sharing him. I put my head down, and I held it up kinda with my hand. "Are you okay with this?" She asked me. I nodded my head multiple times. She asked me again and I said yes. "No you're not." She said. I suddenly lifted my head up. Earlier, she told me that it's good when people ask you if you're okay and you say nothing, it's good to hear them say no you're not and know that you're okay. When she said that, I was lifted. "Why do you say that?" I asked something like that. "Because I know you're not. You don't want to share." She said. I nodded my head, I felt mean though. I was constantly telling her to come in with Farkle and I. We eventually decided I'd leave Farkle and just go with her. Farkle seemed kinda upset, although he didn't want to become the second Cory and Topanga (who did that in the 7th grade). I told the two of them to wake me up if they needed. We also named Farkle's creepy blue striped teddy bear, Zook. So, I set Farkle up a nice bed and I rubbed his back with my hand, and he drifted off to sleep. I went with Maya. She seemed upset. I asked "Are you okay?" "Yes." She said. "No you're not." I said and she seemed happy about that. So, the night ended well. I guess we all did end up being... okay.

The Smackle Attack

So, I know I don't often post on here and I do apologize for that. Now, I have something important to write about. Yesterday, I was going through wikia reading things that were highly offensive and kinda hurt my feelings, majoritly because I thought maybe it was true. So, I was reading the wikias and then I decided to read the episode list, because people were saying something that I did in an episode. I went to the episode list to see if it was true, and it was apparently. So, I went back to wikia. I saw Disney's newest episode was called Girl Meets Smackle. I watched the promo, and I realized that a girl named Isadora Smackle had a crush on Farkle and Maya and I try and fix her up for Farkle. Seems nice, huh? "Finally we can get Farkle off our backs" says Maya. Yeah, she is happy with this. I on the other hand, I am not so happy about this. Farkle has liked me since the 1st grade. He loved me (although he is equally in love with Maya). He was with me for 7 straight years, and it gave me confidence to know that I am clearly dateable. If Farkle had an interest in someone else, Maya would be happy, and I would lose all my confidence. I have always had him to turn to for confidence, and I would be losing that. 7 straight years of him liking me would drain down the toilet. So, I want to find a way to get through this. Maya says I am jealous and maybe I am. Just like I said up there, she'd have all my confidence instead of me. So, Maya said she'd talk to Farkle. Hopefully she does!!!